Vaxidd8 wrote:
Well I guess the two most important questions to ask yourself are "Why do I hate her?" and "Why do I love her?"
It's nothing new that we can all feel residual feelings about people we're no longer in a relationship with, or hell, even the same feelings. You have to compromise with yourself whether or not those feelings you have for her are worth the stress you're obviously under. It's not really very easy, but if there's not so much of a chance of getting back together with her, you have to start filtering her out of your life and let her go. I believe I recall you saying it was a primarily online relationship? (if that's wrong I apologize) If that's the case, then at least you don't have to see her around too much.
You should work on personal healing before you begin tackling interpersonal difficulties, I think.
Do "i'm crazy," "i don't know," and "because," work as answers?
Even if we hadn't fought, I don't think there's much of a chance of a relationship, at least not for a long time. It's been 10 months now, but I just. I keep hoping. Time will pass, things will change, and then we'll be together again. It's dumb, I know. I don't even want to be in a long distance relationship, but. I don't know, I figured we'd work it out. I'm not opposed to living in Seattle, or at least I wasn't. And yeah, all our contact is/was online, but he wave a lot of mutual friends in common. So we're on the same websites, and if friend A posts something, we both see it and say something. My stomach just drops when I see her username.
I really do need to get to better place, mentally and emotionally, before I just... even deal with this. It just came at a really bad time.
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