Bacon wrote:
I'm, kind of appalled by this.
It's not that I felt nothing. When I first saw the body, I was definitely sad, and even thought to myself "Dear God, what have I done?" But the more I thought about it, the less I blamed myself. I became angry that she didn't trust me to take care of things. I was also angry that she would do something like that where our daughter could see (the reason I wanted to show our daughter is because, in a game, which is not real and never will be, it's second nature to experiment with the rules, and see exactly what we are capable of; there was a reason I decided it would be a bad idea if replays weren't allowed), but moreso the fact that she had no faith in me. She could have lived with me, for how long who knows, but she had to give it all up.
Also, it seems that staying with my family, the only action that can keep her alive (which I feel is very selfish; I'm clearly doing this so humanity can have a future, so, again, why can't she just trust me?), makes one of my coworkers blame me for their lack of success finding the cure and stab me in the throat, so not only does my working on the cure save the human race, it also gives us, had she not offed herself, two more days together, which are evidently very important to her because two days apart was what made her decide life was no longer worth living in the first place.I didn't feel her reasons for doing what she did were legit, as I detailed in my post, and manifested my emotions as a dry, detached lack of caring. It's easier to distance oneself from an in-game tragedy, where nothing is real. If my significant other in real life performed such an action, I would be torn to emotional bits, but since I had an emotional front already built ("It's just a game."), that helped me make myself more and more detached from the scenario, until I totally blamed my wife for her actions.