AWKWARD ZOMBIE

Actually, I'm usually not socially awkward, and my friends and i are cool, but i have closer friends too- we all get along okay, we have our inside jokes and always seem to have plenty to talk about. It's just when I'm around someone I like I never know what to say: I mean I don't want to say something and look like a nerd/douche, and I don't want to say something to make me look like i'm a stalker/weirdo, so i just kinda say something like "there is just way too many people here, they should do this thing in waves like we do at lunch" and she'd go on to tell me how much more sense that would make, and then I just don't know what else to say to her- she's in different classes and i honestly don't know too much about her, i guess i just get nervous.

This will sound a bit strange, but I don't care. After reading the TvTropes Tear Jerker page on Toy Story 3, I realized how much I really miss being a young kid again with all my toys. And it doesn't help that I've thrown out almost everyone of my toys except for a few stuffed animals, and my LEGOs. When I was young, I had every single Toy Story toy and I would act out the movie with my toys as it played. If I ever had a time machine, the only thing I'd do is to go back in time to when I was little and watch myself play with my toys just at least one more time, just to cry.

This is so true for me.

man no worries, I felt almost the exact same way after seeing the movie.

seriously that movie is crazy bawwing material for lost youth.

I'm with the toy thing. Also, whenver I see anything Winnie the Pooh outside of Kingdom Hearts, I want to be held my mother again, just like she used to when I was a kid watching Pooh Bear with her. But when I think about it I just want to cry.

Closest thing I have to that anymore is my fiancée holding me in her arms. It's the "I'm young and safe" feeling.

I played mainly with Legos and Nintendo video game systems, and those won't be making me sob any time soon.


Except if maybe I step on a Lego.

Man, if I had a dollar for every time I've heard that one (not to lessen the importance if your problem, it's just that it's a very common one)
Honestly, I've never had the desire to relive my childhood. I like to live in the moment. Take things on as they come, and if i fuck up, oh well, it happened, and now it's over. I also don't worry myself with every bad thing that COULD happen, because no one can read the future, no matter how predictable you think a situation can be. Always be ready for life to suprise you.
The past may seem like your best days, but life will show you more good times, more good things to remember. I, for one, was a terrible human being as a youngster. I was a mean kid, but I grew the fuck up, and I made myself into a person that I could appreciate, and I know I'll manage to get along with my life in a similar manner.
Just let life happen, I guess. No point in hoping for the past to come back to you. You just have to live for the newest good time, and honor where (and when) you came from.
-sinks back into the depths of the forum-

I've never been the kinda guy who has alot of friends since I'm a real quiet one. But I feel very lucky to have like 2-3 people I can call total bro's.

Man, I should get another GAMEZ OVER AT MAI PLACE going.

Yeah likewise.

Look towards the future, look towards JETPACKS

I hate myself.

I blame for parents for how I am. My momma should of tried harder and my daddy should of been there.

If you don't like what you are, make yourself how you'd like to be. Don't blame your parents. That won't get you to change.

i really dislike myself sometimes

I lead a lot of people on about "hurr durr i'm unique and interesting" and people become attached to that but when i get really close to people i let my guard down and they discover that i'm just really boring

hell i only even discovered that when my ex yelled it at me, i can't even judge my own flaws

it just kinda dawned on me that not a lot of people like me and i really don't know why, and i think i just need people to yell my flaws at me 24/7 until i stop being stupid, because apparently that's the only way I ever learn anything.

and about the childhood thing, my childhood was spent on the computer
we didn't have a lot of cheddar to buy hella consoles or anything, we had one computer and i spent my life on it

i couldn't buy a lot of video games, so i just went to my friend's house, david, all the time
apparently he's liked me since kindergarten and i feel terrible about it because again, ONLY FOUND THAT OUT WHEN MY EX (who is friends with him) YELLED IT AT ME

godjesus i am stupid

re watching The Many Adventures of Winnie The Pooh makes me miss my younger childhood.

EVERY TIME!