Torizo wrote:
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With my family as of late it's more along the lines of aesthetic elitism. I'm not pretty compared to anyone else in my family. That's been made painstakingly clear. My sister has always been the prettiest and most charismatic, and I've always been compared to her. For once, I'd love to know what it's like to be beautiful like her, and it feels so... unfair. She has gotten so many things handed to her just for being pretty. Boys throw themselves at her feet and will do anything for her. I'm not saying I'd particularly wish for this to happen to me but it really hurts knowing that no one would ever really do that for me. I don't have a huge group of people madly in love with me like she does. I have Dimm, and hell, that should be all I need but sometimes it hurts to know that I can never be seen as beautiful to anyone else, like her. All my family does is talk about how beautiful, funny, intelligent, and amazing she is. Then they all talk about her nose job and how they all want to get nose and boob jobs. It makes me feel so... empty. I try to feel pop flyin' with the way I am, but I just can't anymore.
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I know exactly how that feels, about how some people have boys throwing themselves at them.
Until Kevin(Dark), only a few boys were ever interested in my. Half of them were creepers with some sort of mental abnormality and made me fear for my safety. (The stares from their eyes! AUGH)
Most were (don't mean to be rascist here, I'm just telling the truth) black guys who liked my booty. I happen to have a bit of a J-Lo bubble butt, and i found out from some sources and rumor mills that many, many of those boys wanted to 'tap dat', in reference to my large bum and wide hips. I was never ever even complimented on my face. Someone once told me that I looked like Steve Nash. >:C
And then there were insanely geeky guys. And I don't mean kinda cool geeks, like most of us, I mean creepy geeky, annoyingly geeky. Pizza-face, LARPer, broken Harry Potter glasses geeky. And they really only like me because I was A GIRL WHO PLAYED VIDEOGAMES OMFG. My looks had nothing to do with it, I was just a vagina they had a few things in common with.
And now FINALLY I have Kevin. He actually thinks I'm pretty, and not just a sweet booty. He tells me I'm gorgeous, with a pretty face, and that I'm cute, and I have a cute voice and hands and everything. And he tells me I'm funny, and nice, and he likes talking with me. And of course, he likes my booty. But that's a given. He likes me for all of me, and I'm grateful I've finally found someone like him, after years of not being the pretty girl that no decent boy was ever interested in, of being a geeky version of a Plain Jane.
Now I've got a nice, funny, good-geeky, handsome Kevin. <3
And I can't wait to get cheddar for graduation so I can send him a gift for being mine.
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