AWKWARD ZOMBIE

Just try to be friends with her first, and if you can develop feelings toward her, try going a little further, getting a bit closer.

If you become good enough friends that she has no problem helping you hide a body, you've got it made.

(DON'T ACTUALLY TRY GETTING HER TO HELP YOU MOVE A CORPSE!)

I feel like a shitty human being. Okay, so when I was a kid, I went to foster care because my dad was abusive. The man who took care of me there was nice and so I continued visiting him from time to time after my mom got me back. It got to the point where I looked to him as my father figure and a lot of my fondest memories of my childhood are from visiting him. But now that I've grown up, I realize that he's not that great of a guy. He's an alcoholic, he's racist, he cheated on his ex-wife, and he's super conservative. One time when I visited him, I was dating a girl at the time and he told me that while I'm there I should try to hook up with his neighbor's daughter. When I told him I was dating someone, he told me "when the cat's away, the mouse will play." And that really kinda irritated me.

Anyway, to get to the point, he had a heart attack about 7 years ago (which I later found out was due to a meth overdose. He's off hardcore drugs now, but he still drinks and smokes pot), and yesterday he called me saying that his defibrillator is messing up and that he legitimately feels like he could die any day now because his heart beat is funny. He wants me to try and visit him, but honestly I don't want to. I keep trying to tell myself that the reason I don't want to is because I have college taking up a lot of my time right now, but really I just don't want to go. It makes me feel like a shitty person that I can't even dig up enough compassion to care about this man who cared about me even though I wasn't even his real kid.

I don't know what to do. Even if I did want to visit him, I really can't because of college, but the fact that I just don't want to visit him makes me feel like I screwed up somewhere along the way on basic human compassion.

Regardless of compassion/gratitude/whatever, I think you should consider it might be the last time you two can see each other, so you could both use it to get closure while you still can.

Yea, but like I said, I actually can't visit him. It's a 3 hour drive from campus to where he lives, and I don't have a car, and I doubt he's in any condition to drive and get me. I'm home right now for the weekend since my friend came home too and I just rode with him, but I'm unable to actually go to his house this weekend.

He does go to the same church as my friend though out of town. I may go with my friend tomorrow and see him for a little while, but that's only if my friend decides to even go tomorrow.

I like to watch buzzfeed videos, especially the "weird things couples do" ones.

I just want Super Mario Maker so my Amiibo have more use.

I look forward to falling asleep so I can see what kind of dreams I'll have.

When someone jabbed me in the side from behind I was getting out my calculator and my first instinct was to shove the case into their throat.

I've played HuniePop

I've beaten HuniePop

I've 100% completed HuniePop

I had FUN

And now you have SHAME

Hunniepop is great. I'm buying the new game day 1

I want to play Huniepop but I'm too shy to.

I once had to push a kid away from me because he was trying to get really close to me and for whatever reason to this day I still randomly and thoughtlessly do the motion I did to push him away.

I am still constantly surprised when I see pictures of people online and make the connection between them online and an actual person.

I should probably do more than 10 decision matrices because our Engineering teacher will almost certainly decide at least one is horrible and not count it, but I can't think of any more or motivate myself to do them. If my friend texts me back I might get 12, but otherwise, probably not happening. He'll probably be rustled because he's all about the grade, but at this point I don't care.