AWKWARD ZOMBIE

The "2016 is the worst" trend/meme/whatever has been pissing me off somewhat fierce lately. A lot of celebrities dying because they did too many drugs back when they were younger (or were just plain old at the time they died) and divisive, often hostile political rhetoric ending in elections/referenda in which demagoguery won doesn't make a year instantly the worst ever. You know how bad 1916 was? It was smack-dab in the middle of World War 1. There was the Battle of the Somme, a horrible confrontation that lasted 4 months and took a million lives with it. And things didn't magically get better once it became 1917. The ubiquitous and instantaneous nature of sharing stories on social media made 2016 seem worse than it actually was.

You do realize that every generation is monumentally self-absorbed, yes? No human who has ever been born is ever capable of understanding that the world continues after him, and existed before him. Even at its most self-sacrificing, humanity only understands that it's making a sacrifice for its own renown, otherwise it wouldnt do it at all. The soldiers who marched off in WW1 just assumed that they'd win because they were them. Obviously Providence had chosen them alone to win.

2016 will live in infamy because the current crop of pop culture defines itself by its celebrities rather than nationalism. Nevermind that most of them were into their 60s and 80s, they were the icons of the baby boomers so the whole world has to stop.

Yeah well I'm rustled off about a bunch of good people dying while all of the scumbags are getting what they want.

2016 kicked my cat and stole my pancakes. It's bad.

Gonna see a doctor again because I've been feeling all day (and last night) like someone's stabbing the right side of the top of my head, yaaay.

Edit: So it turns out, I probably have the shingles, hooray. Doc didn't gather a sample and send it in for testing, because it takes 2-3 days to get results, and he had a really strong suspicion of what it was, so he just put me on the drugs straight away to save me some time from the pain.

Medicine isn't dangerous, so I'm glad if I can be rid of this even a second sooner.

I can't decide whether to study programming or systems administration and I spend so much time trying to decide that I end up doing neither. And then when I do choose one, there's so much to learn that I feel overwhelmed and also end up not doing anything. Ugh. Been a bit better about it lately, but I'm still making slow progress.

Today's year has started out terrible and I'm expecting the rest of it will follow suit.

My little brother is acting really pissy towards me because I won't let him ride his dirt bike in the snow. Like, sorry that I don't want you to die, I'm scared to even drive my car in it let alone letting you drive a two wheeled thing.

Bicycles! A tenth the speed of a car with none of the safety!

Now available with motors to get the other 9/10ths!

I now hate ads that take up the whole page and prevent you from going back to the previous thing you were doing because it is always loading. Why? Because one of 'em popped up when I visited the "Hunger Pains" page.

I think I've always hated sites that never let you go back, but forget every time afterwards.

Edit: Fucking National Consumer Center is force feeding an ad for points for products such as a $100 Amazon gift card. And on Awkward Zombie.

I come to read and enjoy webcomics, not to enter information for...

I'm honestly not sure what I'm looking at.

There are a lot of phrases and retorts I hear in political discussions that I'm really sick of hearing. "It's just my opinion," "I don't hate [group of people], but…" etc. But one that I never really expected to piss me off was "I can respect that." I get that people who say this in response to the explanation of a person’s political views are mostly just trying to be courteous. But what makes me hate this phrase so much is what it really says. “I can respect that” is the most polite way of saying “I'm not interested in listening to you or actually thinking about anything that you say. I'm too deeply set in my own prejudices to possibly be swayed.” I may have appreciated such politeness once, but now this phrase just comes across as a haughty way to discount a person’s arguments. Plus, it feels like a really half-assed attempt to gain the moral high ground. Like, you can "respect" that I think people different from me should be treated like human beings? Well, good for you, you pompous prick. You want a cookie?

Yeah... I just ate my last Peppermint Oreo, so a cookie sounds nice...

I really don't like those paragraph prompts that ask you to compare personality traits between the character and you. Whether I have a similarity or NONE, it makes me feel bad for being me. Even having no similarities is bad, because then it means that I am a terrible person overall when I think about it. I might be terrible and all, but I shouldn't prove it for academic reasons.

Had a dream that a rattlesnake slithered up the wall behind my bed and bit me and now I can't fall back to sleep. Not because I'm scared but because I just physically can't sleep. Fuck.

You died in a dream. You have to wait until you respawn in dream space to go back to sleep.



So, I'm having a whole ton of issues with people asking questions they don't want me to answer honestly. I'm borderline incapable of lying. I can't just give a false answer that isn't representative of what I truly think. Just let me dodge the question and be on our merry ways.

I am so sick of people denying the negative effects that their toxic behavior has on other people and blaming them for being offended.