AWKWARD ZOMBIE

That whole Microsoft AI thing. Yeah I'm not sure if deciding as a group to turn an AI bot into a racism-spouting account is anything to laugh at.



It's pretty scary to me that the first thing people would resort to is anti-Semitism as a joke. Let's make thousands feel bad and belittle horrible tragedies in the process just for kicks! What a load of crap. These guys are hateful xenophobes that pretend they know better to justify their hatred and constant bashing of others.

Plans die with my truck. Goddamn alternator went without any warning. While I was driving an hour away from home. I was stuck at a fucking radio station of all places (picking up my Def Leppard tickets, which I know now to be cursed). Luckily circumstances worked in my favor to get everything fixed today before the sun went down, and my truck is back to work.

So I think I mentioned my mother in the past on here, specifically when she was a missing person circa December 2011 (she turned up sort of kidnapped and with a broken nose but alive). Well fast forward to the present and I am kind of resentful towards her. She's a literal white supremacist trump-supporting skinhead. This woman disturbs me.

We don't have a things that make you panic thread.

apparently the last day of my clinical teaching is 2 weeks earlier than I thought it was, which is not too bad of a thing except those assignments I need to do now need to get done in 2 weeks hahahahahahahahahaha help

also I need to keep sending out job applications in a long and time-consuming process because WHAT IF employers just check for the early birds and just straight-up ignore my application if I wait too long because they've already found people?? So that takes up more of my time.

Also I still need to you know, write lesson plans and shit

My cold went away and now I have a fucking rash from poison oak because I went in the woods a few days ago. I just can't get healthy.

Driving through the rain this afternoon, and as usual there's a few cars without headlights on. "What an asshole," I think each time.

About halfway home I noticed a lack of light reflecting on the car in front of me. I looked down and saw my own headlights were not on.

AND THEN I WAS THE ASSHOLE.

What a twist.

i spent two days bodaciously wanting to shoot myself working on this hell of a project on freelance and today i find out that due to a COMPLETE lack of communication, i wasn't supposed to be working on it (but i didn't know i wasn't supposed to be because nobody fucking told me not to,) and so now i'm not getting paid for my two days' work

I have been in a particularly foul mood for the past five or six days, and I cannot figure out any cause to it.

Did not pass the cert exam I need for credits to graduate and normally there's a 3 month period where you can't retake it, but my instructor said he'll probably be able to fix that. Still what a load of pointless extra worry as if I didn't have enough of that already.

My supervisor is a little bit incompetent and thought my last day of clinical teaching would be next week, when ACTUALLY it's TWO WHOLE WEEKS later.

Honestly I'm not all that mad about it, just exhausted. I still have to have everything done by the same (early) date so all it does is add more stress.

MOmn has benn smoking in the living room this week.

iShe promoied that she would not do that in our new place.
She knows the smell of otabacco completely ruins my aBILITY TO pretendxa to be a normalk human being who has any sort of control over thgere emotional state and now I can't even function.d

I can't tewll her not to do it. She';ll start a screaming contexst and try to make me feel guilty over every little thing I ahve ever done, going all the way back to things I did when I was four years old.

And what's more? Wshe doesn't evben have her ownn income. She just sits around in bed all day, talking about how she will get around to cleaning the kitchen that she left in a huge mess of spilled coffee and bacon greese. She buys those cancer sticks using my disability cheddar and my brother's work income, and she throws a ntantrum whenever she isn't allowsed to buy them, opr when my brother conveniently "forgets" to purchase them for her.

I am sick of the way she acts.

Sorry for the bafd typing but I can barely even keep my hands steady. And i don't even care about it right now.


EWdit: She haas also been taking up all of the internet bandwidrth by steraming constant shows off of Netflixvc and constantly watrching Youtube on a seperate device, never even paying attantion to her Netflix and Hulu, all of which are set to max quality. It's nearly impossible to play online games with my friends. I can't ask her to limit it to one device at a time for fairness's sake. She'll take it as a personal attack, roll her eyes, or not even pay attention to me.

What would happen if you just didnt give her cheddar for cigs? I presume you and your brother handle rent/mortgage/bills since you mentioned she has no income. If all she can do is pitch a fit then she doesn't have much power.

She ios my dfesignated care taker or whatever it's even called. SHe handleds all of my cheddar as I can't do it myself due to absolutely severe anxietry attacks. I can barely even approach a casheir on my own when shoping. There's been talk to have that legal responsibvility transfered to my absolutely awesome brother who makes wise desisions (other than toiday's purchase involving $60 worth of sparkling water, juice, soda and tea), but she makes everyone miserable when she uis unhappy, so everyone pays the price in multiple ways so that she ccan get what she qwants.

aGin, sorry for the typing, I can't bring myself to fix it right nowas.