AWKWARD ZOMBIE

There's the problem, my only contact with her is a facebook account she never uses and the occasional chance to talk to her at school, which happens to be out for a week. Contacting her directly is pretty much impossible, and I'm just asking her friend to relay the message that I'd like to speak with her at some point.

It's not like I'm saying "Hey yo could you ask [name] if she'd go out with me?"

if you're just having them relay to her that you'd like to talk to her, and not "sup let's date" or something, that's fine

it might be a little embarrassing, but she certainly shouldn't think any lesser of you for it

Ha ha whoops I accidentally left out a 'not' in that post in pretty much the worst place, the thing I meant is the thing Cafall said wasn't bad.

I went to a secret Santa party with my friends last night and it was a really good time. We had a lot of good conversation and things went well. All in all, it was a great way to see everyone again after most people had left for school.

A friend that I had had a crush on for pretty much all of high school was there with his girlfriend, and I was fine when I first got there. I still think he's attractive, but it doesn't really bother me as much that he doesn't feel anything for me. He's straight and I would be really surprised if he didn't end up marrying his girlfriend later on because she's really cool. So everything was okay, and his girlfriend left early because she had to work the next day. Everyone was talking and we went through a lot of really intimate topics that I wouldn't feel comfortable talking about with anyone else. At one point, the guy asked me if there was anyone who I had liked during high school. That set me on edge because the two friends that I've come out to were there, and I could kind of feel them tense up when he said it because they knew about my thing for him. It was weird having them waiting for my response. So I just denied having feelings for anyone and it was sort of strange.

Then, later in the night, he was leaving and saying goodbye. When he got to me, he hugged me and gave me a facebattle on the cheek. It wasn't out of character for him because he's a very physical person, but in my head NOOOOO WHAT ARE YOU DOING I JUST GOT OVER YOUUU was sounding. So the rest of the night I was a little uncomfortable after that, remembering how I felt for him and stuff. I feel treacherous for not coming out to him when I had the chance because I'm pretty sure that things would be different between us if I did. I have no idea why it's so difficult for me to come out to people.

Things that happened in the past 3 days between the girl I like and myself.
Spanish class, first day back from break: "Tommyyy! omg i missed you!" and i replied, in the stupidest way i possibly could, without thinking, and said "why?"
(why the FUCK did i say why)
Next day, walk about how awkward it was when I said "why". We both laugh about it. I make a socially awkward penguin meme about it later in the day.
(she's on tumblr and said it would be funny if i made one and posted it on her wall)
Today at my trombone lessons (she's a band geek as am I), she walked in and listened to me do scales because she's becoming a band teacher after college and is learning every instrument. After that in spanish class, i compliment her flannel. she says "thanks, i need more though. can i borrow your blue and gray one?" and she gave me that smile. yeah, that one.
(I'm bringing that flannel tomorrow. She can have it for as long as she wants.)

but for some reason, i'm still too much of a weenie to ask her out.

WHY AM I SUCH A WEENIE.

Oh god Avenge, I can empathise with the last part so much... I think I've ended up a bit more emotionally fucked though, due to the fact the guy I'm interested in is actually gay, and that he's interested in me, but is refraining from getting into a relationship for complicated reasons. I was fine with it right up until the facebattle, and now...

Yeah. I'm still trying to sort my head out. And wondering if I should talk to him again.

so i'm a big fucking loser and in love with my ex-girlfriend but oops we fought and i'm totally useless to her now and we're not talking and i also hate her and how the fuck do i get over this

Well I guess the two most important questions to ask yourself are "Why do I hate her?" and "Why do I love her?"

It's nothing new that we can all feel residual feelings about people we're no longer in a relationship with, or hell, even the same feelings. You have to compromise with yourself whether or not those feelings you have for her are worth the stress you're obviously under. It's not really very easy, but if there's not so much of a chance of getting back together with her, you have to start filtering her out of your life and let her go. I believe I recall you saying it was a primarily online relationship? (if that's wrong I apologize) If that's the case, then at least you don't have to see her around too much.

You should work on personal healing before you begin tackling interpersonal difficulties, I think.

SO I found this amazing girl who like all the same things as me


We're hanging out at lunch tomorrow <3

I'm sure that's rad and all but uh

not really a situation you need advice on there bro

i think the unsaid question was, "how should i divide my time between crying and masturbating when i inevitably balls everything up"

maximise efficiency

weep while fapping

Doesn't everyone already do that? No? Fuck.

ingenious

truly a maestro of despair

If you want to go the extra mile, use the tears as lubricant.