AWKWARD ZOMBIE

Shopping around for Lucha Libre masks reminds me just how much I love wrestling. This isn't just a hobby or something to watch on monday nights.
This is my culture, and it's fucking awesome.

I feel all right about myself.
I feel all right about myself.

Not two years ago I was at my all time lowest point and I had suicidal thoughts for weeks and I felt depressed for nearly a whole year and I thought there was no point trying anymore because everything was forever ruined and nobody was ever going to like me so I just stopped giving a shit about anything, and wouldn't you know it, not spending most of my energy on trying to conform to what I expected people expected from me or being anxious about not being good enough turns out to be a lot better. Allowing myself to be myself taught me a lot about who I am and I am okay with it. I have quirks and an actual personality and thoughts on stuff and people accept me and value my input and don't just tolerate me.
I've recently started to be able to joke around with teachers. That was unconceivable before this year. I'm now able to do things I never thought I'd be able to do before, like driving a car without the constant feeling of impending death, or keeping a job, or existing in public.

I don't know how long this is going to last but right now I can say without a doubt that I'm a person and I'm super pop flyin'.

I've got my music picked out for my audition. And with some practice, this might actually be doable.

So the big trip to San Jose was a bust, but it got my friends talking. We're now planning a big road trip to San Francisco, and stop by San Jose along the way and plunder Tatsu Hobby for plastic battle robots. We're going to rent a car, stay at someone's relatives, and do the whole tourist thing.
Anyone here from San Francisco?

A little bit of extra space in my budget (alongside a very surprising sale) I hadn't discovered means I'm getting Smash Bros 3DS tomorrow!

That. What you just said, that's what's making me pop flyin' right now, because I saw far too much people who never got to this point, and every single one who does is a little miracle. Congratulation !

p. sure I just got a job

it's just data entry but god daisies I'll take it

Got a new bedding set of decent quality (and it's pretty) for $40, which includes sheets, bedskirt, 2 pillowcases, 2 sham covers, and a comforter. I can finally stop using the set that I've had since I was 11. woohoo.

My parents are in town for my friend's wedding, and I had dinner with them at Denny's. It was a little tense, but nobody got upset at anyone, which is a win in my book. We didn't even talk about my change in beliefs, save for when my mom asked a little hesitantly if I still pray, to which I replied that it's fine, I can do that.

yaaaaaaay

Mid-semester break
yay

Let us be useless together.

its 10C outside

yes, I like this, but lets drop that about an extra 30. Then it will be perfect
also add some snow.

Turns out I don't have to pay for any of my college applications because I'm poor. Being poor paid off for once!