AWKWARD ZOMBIE

you know when you're really pop flyin' with something or someone but also sad because you know that it's going to eventually end, or will do shortly

make the most of everything i guess

The hot dog 'stand' of my childhood is being auctioned off.
The two owners can't agree on shit anymore, and in recent years it has apparently become very personal.

Those two old bastards defined hot dogs in my childhood town.

I'm sure it'll get snapped up by some businessman who wants to "save" the business by changing everything.

Go away weird depression that isn't super depressing but is just a little depressing I got shit to do.

I had to take two phone calls back to back for my tech support class and I'm evaluated on the way I answer and deal with the problem. Conclusion: I'm an incompetent piece of shit.

How long do I have to suffer?

What's eating you, Rinoko? D:
Housing troubles?

Unrelated:
My paycheck went in last night.
After paying my car payment, I'll have $25-35ish left until next Wednesday.
Gas for a week, maybe? Food at work... I'll manage from the sandwiches and pizza we coughusuallycough throw away.

Still, though. You know. fuck.

where is princess brothel;_;

What's eating me is my situation continues to get worse and now I'm at risk of getting fired because I can't handle this stress and it's affecting my job performance.

Update: the auction ended in a bidding war between the two owners, so it is staying in the same hands, but -1 old guy

I thought I had gotten over most of my depressive feelings, but today proved otherwise. I feel so morose today for no real reason. I keep feeling like nothing is ever going to change for the better. Hopefully it's just the weather or something getting me down and I'll feel better tomorrow.

Drinking and watching X-Files

usually a fun combo.

then there is the episode where the villain was abused by their father as a kid

woops, i can relate to that

do people usually cry when watching monster of the week X-Files episodes???????
also WOW shortness of breath oh my god this might kill me

he tried to kill two of my siblings, i think

maybe three, if you count me?
nearly suffocated me as a kid

i need to stop thinking about this, whenever i think about this my lungs feel like they are about to shut down and i can't breathe
i need to move away so badly
why does he still live near us? i need to move away so i can never see him again

this show really stresses me out sometimes but thankfully this next episode is less about child abuse and more about a murderous doll
so i guess that's okay then
did i mention that like Scully's hair??
because it's always great.

Well, Mythbusters has come to an end. They didn't even test anything, just two explosions and smashed stuff with a big truck. Though there was the duct tape special, so at least there was that.

ignore this