AWKWARD ZOMBIE

I went for a walk yesterday, and the ice cream van stopped in the park. I'd left my wallet at home, though.

I'm really tired of feeling like I'm fucking stupid all the time.

My best friends dad almost got himself killed in a motorcycle accident, so now I'll have to keep my friend from breaking down all day

Didn't do well at cross crountry today. Was sick for a week, and it's understandable, but it sucks because I think I was on the edge of beating a few people I've been trying to beat the whole season and now I can't keep up with them.

i had my first two days actually like, working on the floor and not in training, just last week

i started on wendsday, but it was only two days because mid-thursday this sickness i've had since tuesday got to me and i had to leave early

and while i do seem to have some sort of chest cold, i also had pretty extreme nausea and such.

but now the nausea has gone away and what i thought was part of the sickness seems to be just... pure stress. i thought i was feeling awful on the job because i was just sick but... even thinking about going back to work, now when most of my sickness has passed, makes my stomach and chest ache. it makes me feel like i'm going to vomit.

i thought i was gonna be able to handle this, it's such a simple job doing such a simple thing, but i think it's actually making me physically ill.

i figured i'd be fine talking on a phone all day but now i don't even want to pick up my own phone, and doing so gives me that same pain in my stomach.

i don't know why i can't just fucking deal with this.

Lilo and Stitch thingy.
Linked because huge

no its okay because Stitch movies to Japan and hangs out with Lilo's daughter or granddaughter or something like that

seriously

Even so, the comic goes further than the anime goes.
I'm certain at some point Stitch would meet with Lilo again. And Yuna will die of old age someday too. So there's more sadness.
Just because you're away from someone doesn't mean you lose all care for them.

Also Yuna is unrelated to Lilo. Lilo is a young woman at the point Stitch! takes place.

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nerd

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I have no clue how Sailor Moon's going to be able to move over here to the UK from the USA and it really friggin' sucks

We've looked up all sorts of things but we're still at a loss because she lives in the middle of nowhere with no job prospects and no method of transportation other than her parents (who only drive to places when they need to shop or whatever, they don't go anywhere for fun) and it's like

what are we supposed to do??????????

She lives in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, surrounded by miles and miles and miles of corn fields and run-down looking buildings and pickup trucks, she gets to go out so infrequently that she gets legitimately excited when she gets to go grocery shopping, there's nothing for her to do except stay at home and sleep and cook and avoid her homophobic, transphobic, racist shitheel of a dad and just

why is this so hard

we have no idea what to do

We live far away from most of our family, and my cousin had a baby a few years ago. We were really close when I was younger, and I feel I'll never get to have that opportunity now. We lost the court case to move up too, so looks like the closest time I'll be anywhere near them for any length of time is when I go to college, if I go to Michigan.

I've been having anxiety attacks more frequently and severely lately and I'm tired of making people have to deal with me.

I feel like they're is something missing from my life/me I should have and nothing I do seems to bring it back.

My mother's health seems to be failing. I don't really know what to do.

Hey wow I'm stressed because I don't know if I will ever find a career I truly enjoy

All because every time work gets stressful my mind jumps straight to "well you better hope you're not gonna be stuck here for years, how long is it gonna take until you have some financial security and mental energy to do what you want in your spare time"