AWKWARD ZOMBIE

I was going to go to a church Young Adult group meet up today to an event hosted by another church that will be talking about and celebrating how much Catholic history is in our city, but I can't go now because I don't know anybody going, and it'd be awkward for me to carpool with a bunch of random people. And I don't know anybody going because my mom wouldn't let me go, because I didn't attend meetings anyway. But the reason I didn't attend meetings was because she said I couldn't handle going to those (once a week for two hours) while going to school. It's not fair at all. I feel so upset like I wanna cry. And even though people are very welcoming to me, I know they must be at least a teeny bit upset that I am not consistent in coming, and sometimes only participate in the big things where there's a party.

All I want to do is be more involved with my church, have fun, and get to know the nice people that are always so welcoming to me there. This feels so unfair.

I found a really cute picture, followed it to find the source for other similar pictures.


...The source wasn't a safe for work source.
And now it's in my mind. Forever.




I really wanted to add one of the pictures to my rotation but now knowing the source, I can't.

Rehost with Imgur? Also it was either a NSFW blog or one of those vaguely Japanese-sounding image websites, I'm guessing.

I actually just found out it isn't actually NSFW originated. I just had the bad luck of stumbling onto someone who drew it that way.
It was this anyways.


This picture was linked on a blogspot with a whole lot of other touhou characters with this style but with stuff I can't mention here.

People being jerks just makes me sad.

Agreed, especially when they are my friends.

I've been self loathing lately, and I'm not sure why.

My stomach.
The doctors don't know what's wrong with it, MIGHT be some kind of infection, not sure.
Either way it hurts so daisies much.

Welp now we are pigs, who don't know how to put stuff away.

I honestly just feel drained and done with life in general.

Life is just one fucking hurdle after another, you get past one and you're immediatly fucked over by a bunch of other ones. And you cant opt out either, because you HAVE to deal with these hurdles to carve out a mariginally tolerable existance. You cant even just end it all because your fucking reptile brain doesnt give a shit about how miserable you are, all it cares about is existing and will scream like a banshee should you ever even try to just put an end to your own misery.

Yeah, that's really not helping, assuming that was a response to Marcato. If it was your own thing, then not very healthy, but hey, you do you.

Nothing like relapsing into cutting again. I'm pathetic. It's no wonder nobody wants me. :/

I'm nothing but an inconvenience to everyone.

No you're not.