AWKWARD ZOMBIE

Spoiler for TMI, but I put it here because it's related to confessions.

As is probably obvious to some people, I'm one of those upstanding members of society. If you're wondering, yes it's about something I "like", but I would at least describe it as just weird instead of disgusting.

no worries, my fetishes are much creepier than some hairy people/animal hybrids.

Every time I want to show up here on the forum and post something, I shy out of it almost constantly.

When people try to talk to me and I can't get over being shy well enough to talk seriously with them, It makes me seem like a bit of a douchebag.

I want to try and improve my drawings, but every time I go to start sketching something for practice, I always get frustrated and give up. Even when I do get something looking half-decent, it still ends up never being seen outside of my room again.

When I do socialize, I always end up apologizing about things I shouldn't, or am just generally awkward in conversation.

Also, filthy upstanding member of society, and whatnot.

Disregarding some things that should not be discussed about me, I would go on, but I would likely end up chickening out before I worked up the nerve to post all of it. Plus, I'm not really all that important anyways.

I'm really shy too. But it's a little better over the internet.
On here, I usually just kinda pretend I'm talking to myself, and if someone wants to join in on the conversation, awesome.

Dude I thought you were 13 holy shit. No offense.

Confessions, eh? This'll be fun.

I have never had an actual girlfriend, had an internet one, it burnt out after stupid shit saying her computer died where she just ignored me for months and cheated on me. I am the dirtiest person you will ever meet, I swear like a sailor, at any and every chance I will crack some dirty joke, where ironically, I am the shyest person you will ever meet, and not have the balls to ask anyone out.

I have ADD, ADHD, and Aspergers, which is why I hate Chris-Chan more than most people.

I am the weakest person around, and yet I have a tendenancy to which serious pain upon certain people, but I could never do it because I would get destroyed.

I am also dirt cheap poor. And I hate it. Hate living in basically the slums of this shit town.

I use the internet as a tool to escape the stupid fucking high school drama I have to put up with every day, and yet my mom tries to rip me off it so I get even more pissy and snappy.

I am one of the nicest people you will ever meet, happiest even, when I am really depressed at times for no reason.

I'm also a upstanding member of society to some extent. :I

Meh, not as bad as others, but still.

You can't "used to be" a upstanding member of society.
once you go fur, you never go back


As for confessions, I'm really only into the upstanding member of society thing because I think they look cute.

I don't really have any creepy fetishes, I'm pretty normal for most intents and purposes.

I'm a total square; drugs and alcohol (to a lesser extent) have no appeal to me whatsoever. And I am fine with that.

Also, I think if I were a man, I would want to be a father much more than I want to be a mother now (which is really not at all right now).

I sometimes wish someone would attack me so I could have an excuse to hurt somebody.
I am fine with some double standards against men because I really love the thought of women being dominant.
One of the things I hate about myself is how I always seem to laugh at people who need to use fat scooters or whatever they're called. Somewhat similarly, I hate it when someone seems like they went out of their way to wear clothes to show off ugly parts of their body.
I always assume that I am the prettiest person in whatever area I enter. I have yet to be convinced otherwise.

I had someone draw a upstanding member of society picture of me once.

Awwww, Val.

Everybody's a closet upstanding member of society.

This...

I've actually cut my fingernails to points before, in anticipation of a fight. I'm not the kind of person to instigate physical fighting, but I like to be prepared. My teeth are really sharp and I'm proud of that, because they're additional weapons.

Then when no fight actually happens I'm disappointed.


Oh, one more confession...

I don't think I ever want to have kids, because I am constantly doubting my own capabilities. Plus, I have an extremely low tolerance for children, and I really don't think I would be a good mother as a result of that. Sometimes I wonder if I have psychological problems.

there is absolutely nothing wrong about how someone feels about children, or having it. As long as you're not driving into a pre school at 100 miles per hour and swinging a golf club out of the window at the toddler's heads then it's all good.

In relation to the topic, I would confess that I think my friends are nice to me more out of fear of me getting angry at them than actually seeing me as a friend
also once i donated $200 to a charity just because it was christmas

Are those supposed to be two seperate things? Because I really would not understand it if they weren't. I can't think of anything wrong with not wanting a child.

I'm also a dirty upstanding member of society/pokephile.

I've never had the balls to ask someone out in real life, and I do LOVE someone I met online. I know it sounds immature and childish and impossible, but I do. and she puts up with all of my whining about my crazy/possibly just manipulative friend. She does all this whining and stuff that I just can't stand and I'd better save this for the minties thread.

I have asked someone I know in real life out, but I chickened out at the last minutes in the middle of lunch because I couldn't get her alone. I asked her out over a PM on youtube. Only to find out she already had a boyfriend. Whom I have met online and confirmed it as such. ((IRL is very difficult, as he lives in ontario.))

I LOVE the feeling of my fists colliding forcefully with something, but I despise the idea of causing pain.

Spoilered for maybe TMI.
I can't stand body hair, and I shave my armpits, chest, legs, arms, stomach, face, and other places. I don't completely eliminate it though, just leave stubble. Completely smooth skin at my age is just creepy.

I have shared... pictures... of myself with my ex-girlfriend due to hormanal influences and a lack of self control. I am deeply ashamed of this.

I like to cover things I don't know up by lying like I do know them, and then feel really guilty and tell the truth, looking like a massive booty.

I can't stand lying, drugs, alchohol, or hurting people emotionally. I'm overly caring and sensitive, which people find strange sometimes.

I sincerely doubt that, so don't feel bad .

I want to tell my friend I like him, but I can't work up the courage and I'm worried that he won't feel the same way and that it'd just make things awkward, especially since I'll be sharing a house with him and another friend of mine come September.

You know those big inflatable things with wavy arms that flail about all over the place? They seriously freak me out.

Even though I hate violence I think I'm actually kind of sadistic, although only when it comes to drawn characters.