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Re: More tumblr related stuff, this time the lastest quote about Jenn in the Screencap thread. Also whoops doublepost?
PLEASE KEEP IN MIND I'M NOT ARGUING THAT DISORDERS OR TRIGGERS ARE INVALID, ATTENTION-SEEKING OR OTHERWISE FABRICATED. This isn't about that, believe.
I think I know why people like Jenn bother me, and it's got nothing to do with me being "ableist." It's because of this growing idea that because you can blame a behavior on a condition, you should, and don't have to do anything at all to help yourself or avoid hurting others. I almost can't tell if Jenn is just an extremely dedicated troll of some kind.
Let's say that Jenn does have other people in her but that AREN'T part of DID, a real and documented medical condition that many people deal with normally and healthily every day, and that her condition is likewise real and completely medical. Maybe it is. That last part itself is what is wrong with her behavior, though, and the behavior of people like her-- the act of saying that because they have a condition, they are entitled to act without any form of regard for others or maturity and have no obligation to be aware of their own behavior.
But that's not okay; my dad has bi polar disorder, and it's hard for him to control at times, even with powerful medication and consuming hobbies to distract him. Does that make it okay when he does explode into violent screaming fits because someone moved an envelope to the other side of the table, or left a single cup in the sink, or even because of bodaciously nothing at all? Is it okay that when he does that, he directs it at whoever is nearby, slams and breaks objects, insults people and howls that others are being bitches/dicks for not letting him act however he feels like at those times? I've often had to deal with his fits completely alone in my life, and as an adult, I've had the courage and control to try reasoning with him when he's like that-- and he's said to me, with complete, petulant sincerity, that it isn't fair of me to ask him to control his own behavior. That's with his medication; I don't want to talk about what he was like without it, when I was very young. He's not physically striking or harming anyone when he's like that; we're never in "real" danger of him directly assaulting us. But I don't think anyone would reasonably say that's okay, mature, or even safe, bi polar disorder or not, actual striking or not.
But people like Jenn take it a step further-- they not only demand in complete seriousness that others cater to every completely uncontrolled fit they throw and then blame on a (often self-diagnosed or dubious) condition, they then demand to be comforted and patted on the back and coddled and loved after they carelessly lose control and hurt the people around them. After all, because the condition itself isn't their fault, absolutely any negative behavior from them can't be their fault either, right?
Having any condition that can affect others is a two-way street as far as responsibility and compassion are concerned. It is on others to understand that you may have unusual physical or emotional needs they need to be aware of and help you with. But it's on the sufferer to be proactive about being aware of what they are doing and how it affects others, and to seek ways (using self-therapy, counseling or medication) to control their behavior and be healthy and safe about how they handle things. Hell, that extends to non-medical conditions, too. If someone has particular powerful feelings about a subject (aka "triggering" feelings), it's their responsibility to let others know in a respectful way, and for others to return that respect by working with them to help them come to terms with it, find better ways to communicate that make the other person comfortable, or avoid subjects when that person is around, if that's their preference.
However, I dislike "triggers" as a term mostly because the vast majority of people use them, yet again, to say "MY FEELINGS ARE SPECIAL AND YOU ALL HAVE TO GLORIFY ME FOR IT! IT'S NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY TO BE MATURE ABOUT MY EMOTIONS AND HOW I EXPRESS THEM!" Are some people genuinely triggered by descriptions and discussions about rape, and other subjects? Absolutely! My mother is, for reasons I won't discuss but are probably easy enough to guess. But guess what? Despite what happened to her, she doesn't throw an out of control fit when someone says the word "rape" or discusses rape as a cause for social reform, and when she does get visibly upset, she doesn't go out of her way to take it out on others. All she asks for is some understanding and care when discussing the subject. And that's reasonable. It's also, like I said, reasonable to ask others to simply not discuss it. That's okay! But using your feelings as a weapon isn't okay, and ideally, people who are triggered by something work not to be anymore; by working yourself into a violently emotional frenzy every time you see a subject you are upset by, you're not healing, or working past what happened to you or a loved one. You're giving it more power over you; you're letting it rule you, and stay a source of terror and sadness in your life. So while I absolutely completely definitely feel others need to be caring and compassionate towards those with special emotional, social or mental needs, the person themself should be working toward healing and stability. I want others to be pop flyin', I want others to be safe, and I know how easy it is to let fear and anxiety rule you.
It's hard. I understand that. It's been monstrously hard for me, certainly, and I'm frankly just not even close to being free of a lot of my problems. But maybe that's part of what frustrates me so much, too-- my whole life, I was kicked around and harmed for not being normal enough, despite going out of my way to control and conceal my disorders as strictly as possible, and despite other people knowing I had them-- and yet now, it seems both "popular" and "cool" with certain groups to be utterly out of control and selfish about problems like mine. Maybe it's overcompensating for experiences they've had that were like mine; now that they're adults and disorders are more accepted as real, they've gone the other direction with it to make up for all the hiding and guilt and shame they felt before. But that's not right, either, and I hope that eventually everyone understands the kind of two-way compassion it takes to help someone through their problems. The phrase "It takes a village to raise a child" is applicable to all kinds of things, and I think it's applicable to that, too. In order for real change and positive progress to be made, I think we're all going to have to give just a little and try to be more understanding of others.
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